New Challenge.

It's not my first time that i'm getting this idea,

But it's the first time i'm trying to realizing this long-lost dream.

I've been trying to design headsets.

I wanted to see headsets as not just a media for us to listen to music, but as an accessory.

Not just worn by informally, but also formally.

Matched not just with T-shirts or Tanktops, but also with dresses or maybe Tuxedo?

Who knows what comes to my mind.

Things are starting to come up to my mind, and i'm trying to keep on the pace and jolted it down.

I'm wondering if i should take fashion design instead of visual communication.

What i want is not fashion, but more into accessory design.

I wanted to try, but i know, my dad wasn't approving ( in the past),

but i wonder if, he'll approve it if i tell him now?

I've decided that, 

I'll apply to many universities, for both fashion and visual communication,

and in case i am not accepted,

i'll take Engineering.

TT__TT

Although i don't wish for it.

The colour is not so clear but actually i tried to make it red with brass effect.

although it's not so clear but that blue one is jeans-material and
the black one is lace, i named it, blue lace.

What do you guys think?? These are still the beginning of it, there are tons of crazy ideas running through my head. Hoho.. XD

I'll just keep on trying without really thinking about the rest.

Let's just see where   my heart takes me!

Ijustwanttokeepyouclose~

Vanessa Mitro

Wings to fly.

Sorry for not updating for a while.
Recently i just don't have the feeling to write anything, perhaps it's because of problems, that i'm encountering
day by day.
So let's start blabbering what has been happening to me.
First, i've sent my portfolio to UDK (an art university in Berlin. for those who's curious, it's University of Arts Berlin). And i've been REJECTED, but i'm fine and i know this is going to happen, it's not pessimism.
Even, i, myself, am not happy ,not to say satisfied, with my works. It's just not the best me.
You can say, i've given up for this year.
But i'll definitely try next year with all my might.

Second, I had applied to foundation class in FU & HU (that's a university specializing in Pharmacy, and literature), unfortunately we have to apply through an organization called UNI-ASSIST.
And that organization gave me a letter that says there're problems with my application after the deadline!!!
And because of that i can't successfully apply to the university..
TT__TT
i just can say one sentence for this: SHIT happens.

And because of that, the third problem happened.
I applied for Technic foundation class in TU! oh my god, i wish you guys know how bad do i hate physics!!
but now, it's not yet decided that i can attend the test, either.
And, if, possibly, i attend the test, i'm wondering if i can pass the test!


But there are good things that happened too,.
i went to the theme park with my friends,,

i've eaten many delicious home-self made food

There are times when i feel happy to be able to cook new food and it tasted good!

garlic bread! <3<3

panggang ayam!

process of making brownies!

sop buntut!!

mushroom cream soup!

don't know the name., easy, pasta!

spaghetti bolognaise!

pizza hawaii

coffee in the morning, what else's more paradise than this?

general something's chicken

and there are another great thingss,,,
i've found a cute accessory shop and bought something cute!

wings to fly high, how i wish i had those wings. 

Or more specifically, how i wish i had abilities to fly high and grab my dreams upon the sky..

Another good thing is my friend had his birthdayyy, and we celebrated it together!

 and last, it's my first time of watching soccer live! it's not euro, but at least it's soccer!

Last but not least, i'm enjoying my life here, but there hasn't been one day passed that i don't miss my family, friends at medan.

i miss you guys.

therearetimeswhenijustwantedtoforgetabouteverything

Yours truly,

Vanessa Sik Mitro.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  

Running out of time.

Don't say anything, just stop the time.. freeze it, stop it, just for a couple month, no..
a couple of days, please please please.
Honestly speaking, i don't know if i can finish it or not.
Just stop it, please..
TT.TT
officially dying.
just kill me now.
*die.
Thanks.

It's been a while.
There had been time that i felt so homesick that i cried so much that my eyes hurt, i'm not ashamed to say that i still cry for several occasions.
I'm living in a dorm with Yvonne, but still, i felt like living alone.
She has courses and usually come home late.
So i eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner most of the time alone,
BUT!
since yesterday, the toilet at ALEX is broken.
so they (alvin,melvin,felix) have to come here in order to take a bath!
haha,, so i've been spending these two depressing yet funny days..
i think i've surpassed my first crisis.
The loneliness i felt, i guess it has lessened bit by bit, by time and by friends and familys.

I'll keep my strength up and fight.
for my target is yet to be achieved.
i'll fight on, and grab that dream up in the sky!

go!go!go!

BLUE

This word comes to me suddenly. It's my favorite song of bigbang's new album. I'm singing my blue. Wish i could say i'm painting my blue?
So, as for my days. It's been another week. Next month i'll move out from my cousin's apartment. I'm going to stay on a student dorm or something like that with my bestfriend.
My class at the language course has ended, so i've taken another class. I've made friends.
There's this girl from mexico. She's just so cheerful that i can't help smiling whenever i see her.
I can feel the similarities between us and also eun hyung, she came from south korea and she's so kind.
The first day class, i was alone and i sat beside her. I've got no copies of the questions they're working on and without a word she pushed her paper, so that i could look at it.
At first i was a little bit scared of being friend with her, since she didn't really smile at me. But now, she's really friendly and caring.
I hope i could make more friend this week! i have a group discussion with norma, eun hyung, tanja and abdi. Maybe i could be closer to them! :p

I hope that everybody could find new friends too!
it's before i cut my own hair and after! which do u prefer?

Vanessa

Chocochip muffin

It's near valentine already and it had snowed. I love WINTER! But the temperature right now is a bit odd. One day it's -7 the next day it drops until -16.. Okay, that's weird.

I've got plans for valentine! Everybody got that too, don't 'ya? I'm making chocolate cookies for my classmates and maybe some for the church fellas. I'm going to a dinner together with church fellas and for the afternoon, I'll go watch movie with the same single friends.

I've just started to go to a art course and the teacher is hilarious, yet clever. I've seen some of his students' portfolio and it turns out great. I hope someday mine will be there too.

But, people hope and try to make it come true, don't you think?

My cousin is going back to Medan for 2 months! How great is that?!

My apartment too, I've been emailing( or you can say blackmailing) the people a couple of times and yet, he wanted me to move this march. Oh great, I don't know if I should move that fast? But, if I don't, I don't think we could get that room. Hm, confusing!

19 1/2

Okay, so now I'm late at the schedule and I don't know if I can make it on time, but I have to, time flies like a jet and before I realize it, I have already running half dead but reach no way near the finish line.
I'm starting to doubt if this is the right way for me, am I someone suitable for this? Or am I just wasting my time? A girl who thinks she knows design but actually just pretends to be?

Bad thoughts starting to come and I can't even stop it.

But will I not regret it in the future? When I take another way, another region of study, will I not regret this option?

I don't know, but I'll try, to take the way I wanted. I know it's not easy, a side of me wanted to quit. But, I just can't.