也许。。。

也许，
它是不可能成真的梦，
但我也还要追着它。

也许，
看自己太强，
现在才发现，
还是现在才可承认，
原来自己是很脆弱。

也许，
在人生一定会有一次感觉到只重感觉呢？

A new door has opened.

I've passed my entrance examination, although i spent the whole week worried sick about going through the exam and waited for the result.
But unfortunately, a good friend of mine, who came together with me in Berlin, failed to pass the exam.
We feel bad, cause from everybody, who came here together, he is the only one failing.
He is so depressed right now, but all we could do is give him support and find a way out for him.
He does have several options and are considering them right now, but nonetheless, we are going to university while he still struggling with the failure.
I, myself, feel very sad and regret for the result.
He is among all of us, the most hardworking person, yet he failed.
:(

But, nevertheless, i really hope he won't be too stressed out. Cause this is not the end of his journey. We definitely will find a way out for him and we'll work this thing out together. I believe in HOPE. cause Hope is a living Dream. We have to believe so that our dream could be come true!

?enogminehwemssimuoyod#

Yours truly,

Vanessa mitro.

Persona. True Self

These past days, while i was studying for examination, i was watching Persona 4: The animation.
This anime really taught me something.
We have to face our true self, someone else, part of ourselves, which we resist, reject, deny.
And then, we can change it to be our power, which will be advantage for us.

"People only see things, they want to see. They only believe what they want to believe." in this anime, they show me that sometimes, the truth, and reality aren't really that bad.
We just need to face them.
I've thinking about facing myself truly. I want to face myself honestly, be true to myself and accept me, my bad and good side.

And lastly, the stronger the Bonds we have, the more power we gain.
They really remind me to take people seriously, and maintain the bond that i have.

Source of these pictures are from google!

However, sometimes reality really isn't the same as anime. But, i promise to myself, i'll try.
I need to recommend this anime, really! they are good.
I like the game, either.
And happy weekends, guys.

Lastly, the OST ending for this anime is really nice.
It is called Never more.

I won’t forget those days that I spent with everyone precious to me,
Never more, will I be alone even in the darkness
I will find it, that precious thing that I lost
Never more, because I’m sure your voice will guide me

I don’t know when but I really have forgotten,
Those important words that I once believed in when I was young
In the world I can’t wake up from I searched for them,
I finally found them, they were deep in my heart all along < Never More >

 This is only partly of the song, i love this part! :D

Happy weekend!

doyouknowiliedwhenisaidi'mallright?

Vanessa Mitro

 

twinkle twinkle little star.

My days have been depressing lately.
Things aren't as smooth as i wanted it to be.
I have a test on 22th August. A test, which determine whether i could get in to the University this year or not.

I'm panicking, yes.
I feel much more pressure, since i've got a rejection letter once.
Although i've known i'll be rejected ANYWAY.
Seeing back the stuffs that i've sent to UDK, the university that rejected me, making me feel funny at myself, mad, yes. I mean, those aren't the best of me. And i feel like i've lowered my own quality by handing over such a low-quality works.
I definitely have to work harder.

 But now, i've gotta give more works to my study for the examination.
Mathematic, not my speciality, and Deutsch, also not my speciality.
What are my specialties anyway?
Sometimes it makes me wonder, what am i good at?
Can i proudly say i'm good at drawing? NO. bigbig NO,
so what am i good at?
=="" it makes my head hurts thinking about that..

I've seen an anime, i don't know if anybody knows about the anime ("c the money of soul and possibility control") but it's about people using their 'future' to gamble money.
The winners got money and the losers, who are bankrupt, will lose their future.
So, there're two arguments:
1. Present is the most important thing, there won't be any future if there is no present.
2. Future is more important than present, cause there'll be no use of present, which has no future.
which one do you think better?
:) i think both are correct bytheway.

Then, lately i've been thinking how precious bonds are.
Not only parents and friends, but also anybody, that we're acquaintances at.
A stranger can also turn out to be our best friend, if we maintain it.
Yet, a stranger can also be our nemesis.
We never know.
But i feel that i have to treasure the bonds that i have with people.

I always wanted to take pictures of theme park like this! it looks so cool! :)

life is a circle without an end.

my new decoration on the window, i copied it from WGM though, but theirs are love-shaped!

the view before i sleep, it's 4:45am if i'm not mistaken, the sun is about to rise if you see it closely.

Even though i can't see, i know they're reaching you, suspended on silver wings. (a thousand words-ff x-2, yuna n lenne)

 

Yours truly, 

Vanessa Mitro

New Challenge.

It's not my first time that i'm getting this idea,

But it's the first time i'm trying to realizing this long-lost dream.

I've been trying to design headsets.

I wanted to see headsets as not just a media for us to listen to music, but as an accessory.

Not just worn by informally, but also formally.

Matched not just with T-shirts or Tanktops, but also with dresses or maybe Tuxedo?

Who knows what comes to my mind.

Things are starting to come up to my mind, and i'm trying to keep on the pace and jolted it down.

I'm wondering if i should take fashion design instead of visual communication.

What i want is not fashion, but more into accessory design.

I wanted to try, but i know, my dad wasn't approving ( in the past),

but i wonder if, he'll approve it if i tell him now?

I've decided that, 

I'll apply to many universities, for both fashion and visual communication,

and in case i am not accepted,

i'll take Engineering.

TT__TT

Although i don't wish for it.

The colour is not so clear but actually i tried to make it red with brass effect.

although it's not so clear but that blue one is jeans-material and
the black one is lace, i named it, blue lace.

What do you guys think?? These are still the beginning of it, there are tons of crazy ideas running through my head. Hoho.. XD

I'll just keep on trying without really thinking about the rest.

Let's just see where   my heart takes me!

Ijustwanttokeepyouclose~

Vanessa Mitro

Wings to fly.

Sorry for not updating for a while.
Recently i just don't have the feeling to write anything, perhaps it's because of problems, that i'm encountering
day by day.
So let's start blabbering what has been happening to me.
First, i've sent my portfolio to UDK (an art university in Berlin. for those who's curious, it's University of Arts Berlin). And i've been REJECTED, but i'm fine and i know this is going to happen, it's not pessimism.
Even, i, myself, am not happy ,not to say satisfied, with my works. It's just not the best me.
You can say, i've given up for this year.
But i'll definitely try next year with all my might.

Second, I had applied to foundation class in FU & HU (that's a university specializing in Pharmacy, and literature), unfortunately we have to apply through an organization called UNI-ASSIST.
And that organization gave me a letter that says there're problems with my application after the deadline!!!
And because of that i can't successfully apply to the university..
TT__TT
i just can say one sentence for this: SHIT happens.

And because of that, the third problem happened.
I applied for Technic foundation class in TU! oh my god, i wish you guys know how bad do i hate physics!!
but now, it's not yet decided that i can attend the test, either.
And, if, possibly, i attend the test, i'm wondering if i can pass the test!


But there are good things that happened too,.
i went to the theme park with my friends,,

i've eaten many delicious home-self made food

There are times when i feel happy to be able to cook new food and it tasted good!

garlic bread! <3<3

panggang ayam!

process of making brownies!

sop buntut!!

mushroom cream soup!

don't know the name., easy, pasta!

spaghetti bolognaise!

pizza hawaii

coffee in the morning, what else's more paradise than this?

general something's chicken

and there are another great thingss,,,
i've found a cute accessory shop and bought something cute!

wings to fly high, how i wish i had those wings. 

Or more specifically, how i wish i had abilities to fly high and grab my dreams upon the sky..

Another good thing is my friend had his birthdayyy, and we celebrated it together!

 and last, it's my first time of watching soccer live! it's not euro, but at least it's soccer!

Last but not least, i'm enjoying my life here, but there hasn't been one day passed that i don't miss my family, friends at medan.

i miss you guys.

therearetimeswhenijustwantedtoforgetabouteverything

Yours truly,

Vanessa Sik Mitro.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  

Running out of time.

Don't say anything, just stop the time.. freeze it, stop it, just for a couple month, no..
a couple of days, please please please.
Honestly speaking, i don't know if i can finish it or not.
Just stop it, please..
TT.TT
officially dying.
just kill me now.
*die.
Thanks.