Tale of Vanessa Sik Mitro: twinkle twinkle little star.

My days have been depressing lately.
Things aren't as smooth as i wanted it to be.
I have a test on 22th August. A test, which determine whether i could get in to the University this year or not.

I'm panicking, yes.
I feel much more pressure, since i've got a rejection letter once.
Although i've known i'll be rejected ANYWAY.
Seeing back the stuffs that i've sent to UDK, the university that rejected me, making me feel funny at myself, mad, yes. I mean, those aren't the best of me. And i feel like i've lowered my own quality by handing over such a low-quality works.
I definitely have to work harder.

But now, i've gotta give more works to my study for the examination.
Mathematic, not my speciality, and Deutsch, also not my speciality.
What are my specialties anyway?
Sometimes it makes me wonder, what am i good at?
Can i proudly say i'm good at drawing? NO. bigbig NO,
so what am i good at?
=="" it makes my head hurts thinking about that..

I've seen an anime, i don't know if anybody knows about the anime ("c the money of soul and possibility control") but it's about people using their 'future' to gamble money.
The winners got money and the losers, who are bankrupt, will lose their future.
So, there're two arguments:
1. Present is the most important thing, there won't be any future if there is no present.
2. Future is more important than present, cause there'll be no use of present, which has no future.
which one do you think better?
:) i think both are correct bytheway.

Then, lately i've been thinking how precious bonds are.
Not only parents and friends, but also anybody, that we're acquaintances at.
A stranger can also turn out to be our best friend, if we maintain it.
Yet, a stranger can also be our nemesis.
We never know.
But i feel that i have to treasure the bonds that i have with people.