Chocochip muffin

It's near valentine already and it had snowed. I love WINTER! But the temperature right now is a bit odd. One day it's -7 the next day it drops until -16.. Okay, that's weird.

I've got plans for valentine! Everybody got that too, don't 'ya? I'm making chocolate cookies for my classmates and maybe some for the church fellas. I'm going to a dinner together with church fellas and for the afternoon, I'll go watch movie with the same single friends.

I've just started to go to a art course and the teacher is hilarious, yet clever. I've seen some of his students' portfolio and it turns out great. I hope someday mine will be there too.

But, people hope and try to make it come true, don't you think?

My cousin is going back to Medan for 2 months! How great is that?!

My apartment too, I've been emailing( or you can say blackmailing) the people a couple of times and yet, he wanted me to move this march. Oh great, I don't know if I should move that fast? But, if I don't, I don't think we could get that room. Hm, confusing!

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Okay, so now I'm late at the schedule and I don't know if I can make it on time, but I have to, time flies like a jet and before I realize it, I have already running half dead but reach no way near the finish line.
I'm starting to doubt if this is the right way for me, am I someone suitable for this? Or am I just wasting my time? A girl who thinks she knows design but actually just pretends to be?

Bad thoughts starting to come and I can't even stop it.

But will I not regret it in the future? When I take another way, another region of study, will I not regret this option?

I don't know, but I'll try, to take the way I wanted. I know it's not easy, a side of me wanted to quit. But, I just can't.

It's my third attempt to write this post!!!!

Okay, I know it's hard to post from an ipod, but I don't know it's this hard!!!

Yesterday i've tried twice and now, here I hope it'll be posted successfully.

So, it's been around a month since I came to Berlin. I'm beginning to get used to waking up on 6.30 but the sky is still total darkness. And walking everywhere, and also walking around on 5 and the sky is, again, really dark.

I'm starting to get used to be greeted by freezing cold wind every morning, I'm enjoying my life here, really.

And again, problems have never really leave us, we all know that. And here I am, facing a tight-schedule-no-ideas-freaking-out problem with my portfolio. Fortunately, I'm going to start portfolio course on February.

The first week and second week here I really have, totally, forgotten about my portfolio. In this chance, although I don't know if she would read this, but anyway, I was 'waken up' by my cousin, with whom I've been living right now. I don't think a billions thank you will be enough to express my gratitude. But it's better than not at all!!

I came here and live with her, she and her small family welcome me warmly. Making me not that homesick. I felt very accepted and the atmosphere feel almost like home.

But still. I miss my family, but it's because of their supports that I can stay wake this late to do my works. Although I feel a little pessimistic about my portfolio, the thought of them keeps me going on and on.

My bestfriend too, she helps me a lot and give me ideas and all the help I needed. My other Friends too..
I'm grateful that I came here not by myself, but with them. I believe that together we can!!!

Oh, and the food here is extremely delicious, especially the cakes!! Oh my god, Sio sinful yet delicious!! Chocolate is indeed the deadliest weapon of all!!

I wish everybody a good sleep and sweet dreams!

Vanessa

Berlin's prologue

It's been a week! I can't say that I'm not counting, but yeah, here we are, the first introduction week.
Berlin is a beautiful city with efficient transportation ( which I love it very much). I'm livid with Yvonne in my cousin's house. They got cute little guy named trevis!!! Super duper cute. It's very disappointing that due to my computer's-don't-know-what happen, I can't post any photos this time. But I'll definitely post it ASAP!
I've spent Christmas here without snow but I've been welcome with snow the first day I arrived! It's super duper shocking. It's funny to think that my first impression of snow is that it's wet.
Soon my first new year here will arrive. And also, my first new year away from my dearest family :( how sad is that?!!!
But I truly, have to, believe it'll all worth it when the time comes. So now, I'll be patient and will try my best to enjoy my life here.
Everyday we have classes. Don't misunderstand! They're cooking class, washing, etc. I've learnt a little to cook things not too complicated. At least they tasted good. :))
My cousin and her husband are really nice to me. The other cousins too..
I'll post the food here asap! But now, let me enjoy my late night coffee and try to finish my drawing first!!!
I miss my fam at medan... T.T but for them, I'll be strong!!!
Love,
Vanessa

The last 62 h 10 m ...s

Okay, no freaking out. no turning back. i know you can do this. And why can i know? Because i am YOU.
These last few days have been hectic. Times flow too fast that i can't even take a breath. Well, i know that sounds exaggerating but that's how i feel.
I think i have not enough time to be here but, on the other hand, i have not much time to waste either.
I don't even know why. People are saying how happy i must have felt but i cried until i'm too tired and sleep on my tears. Is that very happy? I have to admit. I do feel happy when i think about the snow, different country, different people that i'll encounter. But when i think about the departure, the distance, i feel sad, empty. There are times i feel confuse, that i don't want to continue this journey, but when i think about my future, and the knowledge i about to get, i feel that i can't miss this chance. That every sacrifice that i made will someday give results and our family will at last be reunited. And when that happen, i'll finally can make my family proud.
That feeling will be priceless. I won't fail. I can't afford to any failure. i must make my dreams come true, no matter what happen,
These are the recent pictures of me and my fam and friends.

i was trying to do 'i love you' with the pictures, did those work??

Felicia, our maknae, were having birthday and we got little surprise for her.

December's Rain.

Shira and her Yakuza style! haha..

Just like a family pictures, don't you think?

These are my artworks, although the source of the pictures are taken from the game magazine, zigma. i hope they like them cause i spend sometime doing those.

And then we all lived happily ever after. I hope that will always be an end to everybody's chapter.

Loves,

Vanessa Mitro

A little depressed, that's all

I don't know what's gotten into me all of a sudden.
I feel like being thrown in a place of nowhere.
I know no reason why i'm feeling like this, or do i?
I have this girl friend of mine, we're quite close.
But now that we've graduated from our school, things become different.
Not that i didn't predict that any of this would happen.
But, when it do happen, i felt strange.
She replied my text with a carefree answer, it's as if she's trying to tell me any of that is not a matter for her at all.
We became distant and i don't know what to say to her.
Am i the one being too sensitive?
I don't know, my head's spinning and i feel confuse.
But i came with one resolution, that i won't let any of that happen between me and my other best friends that i have, and i wanted to be a best friend that my best friends could count on to, no matter what,. And after all, best friends stick to you no matter how far the distant is, isn't it?
And also the best friend that will stick to me, in good time and bad time, i don't think any words could express my gratitude, but i guess i can start with a " thank you"?
Isn't it, Yvonne Lorensa? I'm counting on youu!

i took this from google picture search, so this is not my  artwork, the owner can take credits on it! hehe..

I'm freaking out.

Honestly speaking, i am afraid. I'll be leaving in a month and i won't be back for quite some time. Things won't be the same and i won't have my family right beside me. I'll need to organize my life myself and everything must be done alone. I'll go to place where the people are not speaking English and are speaking Germany, which, as the matter of fact not (yet) my specialty. 

But yet, something do make me relieved. I'm not going there alone, i'm with friends that are already known me, understand me and i, myself too, am comfortable and believe them, as they believe in me. We need to believe in each other and make this work out. We'll be living together there, aren't that supposed to mean we'll be family there? I'm looking forward for it!

Ah, by the way, i am going to Germany in a month, and i will go with 4 of my friends. 1 is my cousin, another 2 are my friends since kindergarten and the other 1 is my high school friend. We won't be taking the same course for university there but we'll live together in an apartment.

Life maybe not easy for us, teenagers, who are still struggling to be adult. But, if we, five, fight together. I think this will not be as hard as it is. We'll help each other and adapt quickly!

Oh, and i wanted to show you guys my father's artwork! Sorry for the low quality pictures, i took these with my Ipod. So please be considerate! ~^^~

These are delicious!!

Pictures taken by: Vanessa Sik Mitro

Food cooked by: Christian Sik Mitro

A seaweed soup with lots kinds of toppings! crab meats, chicken, etc! super sweet!

when meats meet seafood and veggies...
This is what we called as kweatiau, it's a kind of noodle.
In this one, my dad served it with pork meat and shrimps. For the veggies, he put bean sprout, mushrooms, and
i forgot the last one's name!!

my favorite home made chicken rice.
Love it!! I guess every county love chicken rice, don't we? expecially hainamese chicken rice!